Hubris

A week ago and a half and much more long
I felt betrayed and I should never have felt like that
I do not know why I was so vulnerable or even why I let myself be hurt
Nor why I felt like that
I mean, it happens once in a while
To be dropped and betrayed by someone you think is like you
And so obviously being manipulated and controlled to do things by someone
I mean, why do I bother at all if the only one I can rely on is at the end myself
Maybe I should shut myself out from all of the outer world so useless feelings like these never reach me
And if you tell me to go the way alone

My friend, I do not walk the way, I walk because of you
You are the only thing that keeps me walking, stalking, prowling on this hateful place
And the worst is, now I don't even know why I was stricken with anger
Time is such a cruel thing
I only know now I have to stand up for someone I am not anymore, I want an apology
It will not mend anything real but it will give me a reason to talk again
I want, I deserve an apology because it is appropriate
And no one will stand up for myself if I do not enforce these things

You may know me, I tolerate almost anything and may tolerate even ruin
So I'll have to refuse these words and scream once at you
So it will feel balanced again
But what no one knows at the beginning, my friend
The Lonely is a cruel and beautiful woman
And she may have me in her grasp, evermore.